February 2012
4 posts
Today, I’m taking a stance against my negative self talk. Stop picking on me. Just because you run in my mind, it doesn’t mean you’re true.
…I really just want to be much kinder to myself…I am really my own worst bully.
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You know when you have ADHD when...
…you are having a hard time concentrating on going to sleep.
theviolenceoftheoceanfloor asked: The one main thing I learned through Uni was that you need to be who you are and accept it even if it is someone you don't want to be it just the way it goes. Accept it and life becomes so much easier and you appreciate yourself so much more. from personal experience
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I started doing group therapy last week. So far, I realized that I am not happy with the way I am. And I’m not accepting myself for the way I am since I am so focused on the way I think I should be. That’s a shame since I have many accomplishments and I just keep brushing them off.
January 2012
1 post
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Scared of success
I am scared of success because I don’t like getting attention from others.
December 2011
6 posts
Reblog if there's no snow for Christmas where you...
Reblog if you spend more time lost in your...
nicoosuxx:
Yea. I’m more socially acceptable in my imagination but somehow it doesn’t translate well to social skills in reality. /sigh
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“I’ve heard good things about you.”
I keep hearing this from people at my work. I hear it so much I don’t know if it’s just a nicety or if they really mean it….or is it just my anxiety preventing me from accepting a sincere compliment?
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Realized that I forgot to take my meds today. No wonder I started to feel sleepy at 3 pm when I got 8 hours of sleep last night. Also realized it when I checked the mail 2x today. Doh!
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Christmas is coming...
That means I have to get presents. Not that I have to. I want to because it’s the nice thing to do. But, I find present giving difficult when I have no f’ing idea what to get a person. Usually, I’m just like a Pier 1 commercial - I have to find things that speak to me that screams, “OMG. I’m so for [insert name here].” Christmas is so overwhelming.
November 2011
15 posts
Today, I met the director of my workplace for the first time. She has a warm positive energy about her and told me how she’s heard good things about me. I was really flattered. That made my day.
Absolutely Healthy: Knowledge →
absolutelyhealthy:
I want to know both, how to cope with ADHD without medication (if no other choice) and then with medication. Meds don’t last 24 hours, unfortinately. I know too much of people with ADHD and I know it too well. The question is not why do I care, it’s why wouldn’t I care. I may have some…
Done it for 27 years. Couldn’t have done it without a supportive family and...
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My Mom's Short Attention Span
On the phone with my mom:
Her: “…[blah blah blah…Xmas travel logistics, serious stuff….] “
Me: “….” (ugrrrrhhhhh….this is so frustrating….overwhelmed gahhhhhhhhhh)
Her: *cat catches her attention* “….did you know that our cat’s fur is all nice now?”
Me: ….(what does this have to do with what were talking about…..?)
Me: “Well, isn’t it because it’s winter??”
Her: “….what??”
Me: “……let...
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Up to 40
I went to see my psychiatrist this morning. After my incident of accidentally taking 40 mg XR the other day and telling him how I feel my XR runs out at about 10 am, he finally upped my dose. Feeling like it is more effective today, so we’ll see how this goes. He also prescribed me anxiety meds for the first time since I mentioned to my counselor about my social anxiety and just me...
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absolutelyhealthy asked: Thank you for liking my post. Do you agree with it?
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attention DjD-Lux deficit: A Summary of Things,... →
A passage from the book my new therapist assigned me as homework, regarding my impending ADD diagnosis:
* “Remember that what you have is a neurological condition that is genetically transmitted. It is caused by biology, by how your brain is wired. It is not a disease of the will, nor a moral…
I met with my mental health counselor yesterday. I described to her that during the time I...
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Accidental 40
I am quite absent minded. Especially when in the mornin when my meds haven’t kicked in yet….yea.
30 minutes after waking up this morning, I took my 20 mg XR. I drank this with water. I made myself a cup of tea and took it with me to the bathroom counter. I did the morning thing and saw that my cup of tea was on the counter.
So then I thought, Ooh. There’s a cup of tea...
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October 2011
15 posts
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10 Years Ago
Exactly 10 years ago, I wrote this about myself in my Livejournal:
Bad habits: I’m too overanalytical about a lot of things which lead me to putting myself down too, borrowing stuff and returning it a millinium later, absent-minded, driving like a typical female Asian driver…
Reading that now, I’m like, “Yea. Totally sounds like anxiety and ADHD to me!” I guess...
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A Nerdy Girl Talking about Geeky Things: A PSA for... →
geekyjessica:
I just want to say, that if you meet someone new and they seem snobby or stand offish, please consider the thought that they may just be shy. More than that, they may have social anxiety and if you meet them in a loud crowded place they are probably not only freaking out about meeting a new…
I can relate to this.
In a world where first impressions are everything, I also struggle...
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Adults with LD are Adults
Two weekends ago, I ran into a colleague of mine from my former workplace. Normally, I’d have a bout of social anxiety, indulging my natural fight-or-flight response of a perceived false threat of seeing someone from my past. (really…I don’t know why I even do that) But, he was a friendly face, so I fought my urge to run away. I went up to him said hello.
I told him what...
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Organization Tip @ Lifehacker: Dividing Your Table... →
Growing up and even in the adult working world, I’ve had to deal with very cluttered desk. If you scroll down to the comments, a commenter with ADHD wrote out how he divides his works space to make it work for him. Seems pretty helpful.
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Bringing Myself Down
I missed the bus this morning. It’s something I know I struggle with, but thanks to a supportive husband, he’s been helping me tweak my morning routine, so I can make it to work. He is also patient enough to drive me to work if I miss the bus. (it’s only a 10 minute drive) I really don’t mean to do it. It’s hard for me to establish a sense of consistency.Before I got...
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I Think in Pictures
While I was watching the movie Temple Grandin, I realized that I, too, think in pictures. I feel like my mind is like a camera, taking pictures of the world around me when I’m attentive to my surroundings. These pictures are stored in my mind and is translated into text should my urge to write strike my fancy.
Should I need to remember a sequence of events, I close my eyes and ask...
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Anonymous asked: My mother is on depression medication and medication for adhd. We're a lot alike in so many ways. But I'm nervous that I'm like her when it concerns adhd (maybe even depression) I feel scared when the idea of going to a psychologist comes up. I'm only 20 and I feel like being on medication is not a good idea. Any advice?
“You know you have ADD when: you’d like to try the relaxation exercises your...”
– (via bwenner)
Don't like to be touched
Sometimes, I just don’t like to be touched. And it’s hard when I snap at my husband because of those times I don’t want to get touched. It’s not that I don’t love him. Him touching me sometimes disrupts me from what I’m doing or my chain of thought. I just need time to decompress from my busy work day and have some me time.
Just today he wanted to touch me...
lisirose asked: Haven't seen you post anything in a while so hope things have improved for you and your just busy with work. ;-)
August 2011
6 posts
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Nos·tal·gia: What's it like to have ADD/ADHD? →
nancyidgaf:
It’s like listening to a shitty radio station with a lot of static and you’re straining to hear the words.
It’s like trying to build a house of cards in a dust storm. You have to build a structure to protect yourself from the wind before you can even start on the cards.
It’s like driving in the…
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Developmental Learning Disorder
I came back from vacation yesterday to find my psychologist’s educational report in the mail.
I skimmed through it and what struck me the most was this sentence:
Based on the present results, the most appropriate diagnosis is developmental learning disorder in reading.
To which I thought, Great…Another label. No wonder I can’t finish reading fiction books!
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The Expectation to Call
Me: *calls mom* “Hi. Are you home?”
Mom: “Nope. I’m headed to the office. Why?”
Me: “I’m in town. I forgot my keys in [my apartment in another state].”
Mom: “You’re in town?! You didn’t even call!”
Me: “Oh…”
Mom: “When did you get in?”
Me: “Yesterday.”
Mom: “You’ve...
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20
In this past year, I’ve had 20 mental health appointments spread between 3 different providers. Good thing insurance paid for 18 out of 20 of those appointments!
Gyea…that’s not normal. -_-;
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Done with testing
Yesterday was the last day of my psycho-educational testing. I found out that, like other achievement tests, my writing achievement is above the level of those with a Masters degree. (I only have a Bachelors degree)
It also documented something I kind’ve knew about myself - I’m a slow processor. The psychologist reviewed how my scores show that my speed in answering questions -...
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Q&A: My Reason for a Formal Diagnosis
supermarketmike asks the following questions:
1. How did you come to be diagnosed with ADHD?
2. How easy/hard it was to get used any changes your doctor(s) required of you?
My lengthy answers:
1. How did you come to be diagnosed with ADHD?
Long story, but here it goes:
It never struck my mind that I have ADHD until one of my interns called me out on it last June. She was training to be...
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Q&A: My Strengths & ADHD
shaystraytoreplay asks, “What strengths do you believe your ADHD may aid in?”
Some say that having ADHD is a gift, but not knowing that I have ADHD until less than year ago really hindered my natural strengths. Thinking back, I do recognize that because of my ADHD, I’ve developed many strengths and coping mechanisms to help me be more successful. Now that I’m getting...
ADHD Role Models
blameitonmyadhd:
The fact that Adam Levine has ADHD comforts me. It shows me that a person as successful and talented as he is can manage their symptoms enough to write amazing songs like that. I think its inspiring.
Never knew Adam Levine has ADHD. Yay for role models!
July 2011
14 posts
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7th Grade Reading Level
Today was Day 1 out of 2 for my supplemental psycho-educational testing. Whereas my previous testing was covered by insurance, this one was not. I was on my regular medication at this time.
Major findings
I read at a 7th grade level. Without extended time, my reading comprehension is at a 36th percentile. With extended time, it is at a 79th percentile.
My math achievement level is greater than...